This song is a personal story that Ricki brought to precious life!
The fact that Ricki pulled a certain kind of life out of death is special to me beyond words.
I posted this on Forum 3. It was called “Wake Up, My Dream.”
Ricki significantly edited the lyric down and renamed it appropriately…Benjamin.
Benjamin's heart stopped beating on September 11, 2001.
Ricki didn’t know that when she sent me the MP3 two days ago.
To say that I think she created a beautiful song is an understatement.
Thank you, Ricki, for putting your great talent, and your heart, into this!
Lisa

BENJAMIN -Soundclick
BENJAMIN - Soundcloud
©Ricki E. Bellos & Lisa Gundling

I call him in my mind
Staring at the ultrasound
How can such a heavy loss
Weigh less than a pound

Sixteen weeks of life
Feeling him so much alive
Begging him to be strong
Truth cuts like the surgeon’s knife

Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up

After all these years
My cheeks have never dried
Through the blood and all the tears
The mother in me still dies

Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up

It was such a wondrous time
I was ready to share my body and soul
Ready for his life but not his end

Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up

Benjamin, I still call to him
Wake up, my dream, wake up
Benjamin