I feel full of myself at times for my long winded explanations of what I do or don't do, talking bout' myself.
Not being out for anything other than just doing it, 3 years on the net can get aimless without at least some kind of perspective on what I want to do.
It becomes something to where I can't just say I am going to do something for giggles.
I was just a lonely guy at night after my labor job before this with an instrument.
That has'nt changed, except I do it more to play than record anything.
It's easy to play, but hard getting the drive to write.
Because there are so many different methods.
Like finding out the difference between hacking on chords and slopping something together instead of coherent, organized songwriting.

I don't practice too much, although I used to a lot more.
I just can't feel the inspiration playing for the sake of practicing.
I have been practicing with my keyboard more.
But I feel a need for a driven mood to pick up that guitar.
Though I am slowly getting a drive back to redo some of the heavy guitar originals I started out doing when I was deep into playing alternative and classic rock.

I'm usually driven by a certain mood or atmosphere.
I have my keyboard sitting in front of me since that is my main instrument, with my 2 guitars - electric and acoustic in the corner, that I have had sitting by me.

If I don't have the drive to reach for that guitar, than nothing will come out of me that I want to put to a recording.


And I also found out that I like a lot of the music the critics hate.
I have urges of doing political diatribes with music, yet want something more universal.

Being a wannabe songwriter that does'nt have much of the musicians attitude, I am driven only by mood and impulse.
I wonder how many seasoned musicians have a song idea that they really feel strongly about but think that it would'nt fly musically? Or what they would consider trash.
That seems to hold back many.
Even I have put only about half of the recordings I have made on sites.

Matt


http://www.f3music.com/444