Dearest Michele,
Whenever we get through a horrifying experience, it hopefully makes us stronger. You said, "I live in hope everyday, I didn't go through that horror and pain for nothing."

I remember praying to God and saying, "When will the tide turn my way? I give and give and get little in return. I feel like Job. Will I ever receive anything in return?" And then the most amazing thing happened. I realized that I live inside my own space and that my space is a very peaceful, happy space. I don't live in fear or anger or hate. I realized that THAT is a very big gift and not very many people have been given that gift.

I am telling you this because dear girl, you obviously have such tremendous gifts like your huge capacity to appreciate and love others, your willingness to help on such a large scale, your lovely voice and your talent to write songs. If any of these gifts were strengthened or even initiated due to your horrifying experience, then you've already gained much more positiveness in your life. So it has not been for nothing. Now, let's see if you can add to all the gifts you've been given by taking them to the next level!

Blessings,
Heidi

"And, in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make." Paul McCartney