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John
These questions are the same ones I have been struggling with for a long time.
I am sorry to hear you are going through the loss of a parent. But like all things in life it has to be.
I lost my Father, my Stepfather, and my Little Brother in the last few years. Let alone a whole bunch of Uncle, Aunts, Cousins, Nieces, Nephews, etc.
Why it has to be is what I don't understand.
In the 1970's I went through the pain of burying my children. A 6 year old, a 3 month old and one stillbirth.
Why?
The Coroner couldn't even tell us why they died. Sudden Infant Death Syndrome is all we got.

If I get to "Heaven" will they be there? Will they be grown up? Or will I pick up where we left off?
I cannot understand a God that could create this Universe and then let this happen. If it's a test to see if I am worthy that's a really crappy thing to do. I'm not sure if I am willing to give my allegiance to a God that would do that to me.
When I die if I get the chance to stand before "Him" He has some explaining to do. We'll see where it goes from there.
I wasn't much before they died. Didn't really have a whole lot going for me. But the death of my 6 year old did, I believe, long lasting damage to my Phsyche. I believe it affected my ability to function in society in ways that I do not understand.

I read a book once that tried to explain it all. What I came away from it with is God does not interfere with happenings here on Earth. He lets things take their course.

Well then why did he create us in the first place. What are we, toys? He gets to sit up there and watch us crawl around on this miserable rock like ants in a Glass display with nothing to look forward to except death. Then we are supposed to believe he is "there" for us. And we are supposed to enjoy some kind of everlasting peace for eternity?

I have a friend who has always had it good. I'd say "easy" but that wouldn't be correct. He works hard.
He is about my age. He got married about the same time I did. He has 4 kids and a bunch of Grandkids. He is financially secure. Wealthy actually. Everything always seemed to work for him. He is happy in his retirement. His kids are all doing well, College. etc. Even his Grandkids are doing well. Of course he has the money to help them but they really don't seem to need it.
I have tried to understand this. He and I started out about the same. Working stiffs going to work every day and trying to get ahead.

Here I am still wondering about next months mortgage payment, 3 out of 4 of my kids are dead, my one remaining daughter has struggled through her whole life. None of my Grandkids even finished High School and are struggling.
My friend has never been very religious. I don't think he ever goes to church.

Why two such separate paths? I just don't understand it.
Where is God in all this.
Why was he deserving and I was not?
Then I look at my own situation and see people all around the world living in horrible conditions. They would trade their life for mine in an instant. I realize I have actually had it good. Now that's pathetic.

Like I said. This God has some explaining to do.